I've been sitting here for the past twenty minutes trying to figure out the best title for what I want to write and I came to the conclusion that there isn't one. Something deep down just told me to let the pen do the talking and to stop thinking about it too much. I think it's the Virgo in me to overthink every situation that doesn't even deserve more than 2 seconds. This is probably the fourth page I turned to and said, "okay, this is the one". Trying to force out content with no context seems to be the worse.
I am listening to the one of my favorite albums as I write, The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill. On track 5 she said
"How you gon' win when you ain't right within"
This spoke to me on a spiritual level right at that moment. We cannot fully start living our own truth until we dig real deep within ourselves to fully find happiness with who we truly are! Its not about being perfect or what others believe we should be. Just like on track 14
"And deep down in my heart, the answer it was in me
And I made up my mind , to define my own destiny"
We often go searching for answers about ourselves through others when all along it was already instilled in us, we just had to realize it. As I reach the last song on this album she says
"Let me be patient, let me be kind
Make me unselfish without being blind
Though I may suffer, I'll envy it not
And endure what comes
Cause he's all that I got"
This ties be back to the Corinthians 13:4-7
"Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.
It does not dishonor others, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.
Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.
It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perseveres."
Although we go through many trials and tribulations, know that you will be alright! As long as you fill the world with love, keep faith, and live your truth!